A Different Kind of Trust

A Different Kind of Trust

An excerpt from Why I Still Believe was featured on Ann VosKamp’s blog today. Thanks to Ann for inviting Mary Jo to the farm’s front porch.

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If I ask a person why they aren’t in church today, many may say it’s because of the hypocrisy of Christians. For Mary Jo Sharp, this objection is personal, painful, and forms the background of her latest book, Why I Still Believe. Though she’s an apologist and professor, her experiences in the church have driven her to question if Christianity is true…or even worth it. Having been drawn to God through the beauty of His creation, but seeing the ugliness of human failings, she’s heartbroken that what she found in church didn’t match what she longed for. Mary Jo calls her journey an “anti-deconversion” story about finding hope and answers in the grace of truth of Jesus. It’s a grace to welcome Mary Jo to the farm’s front porch today…

guest post by Mary Jo Sharp:

My husband isn’t good at recognizing the difference in women’s clothing sizes. However, he is extremely thoughtful about washing, folding, and putting away laundry.

When these two characteristics come together, it can be quite amusing.

Roger would fold the laundry and put the items in our dresser drawers. Then, in the morning, I would open my underwear drawer and find my preteen daughter’s set of underwear staring back at me.

“Roger-dodger?” “Yes?”

“Where are you? I need to show you something.”

“I’m in the kitchen.”

I sauntered into the kitchen with my daughter’s underwear halfway up one leg over my clothing, a completely serious look on my face. “So, I think I’ll wear these today. I found them in my drawer. What do you think?”

Roger smiled. “Oh, that’s not your underwear, is it?” “No, but I’m flattered that you think I’d fit into these.”

It wasn’t just an underwear issue. Roger’s clothing-size judgment skills extended to all pieces of my wardrobe. Over the years, I’ve found my shirts in Emily’s room and my jeans in Roger’s closet. I routinely engage in impromptu fashion shows to demonstrate the error.

Now, suppose for a moment that I didn’t recognize the error before I put an item on. Assume that I just put on the under- wear and then wondered why I felt uncomfortable.

For me, that is what “churchy faith” felt like. Trying to put on my church’s cultural expression of faith made me feel like an imposter, like I was wearing someone else’s Jesus-believing clothes.

Yet I had no idea how to find a genuinely fitting faith. And so doubt began to creep into my soul.

Head to Ann’s blog to finish reading…

Podcast Interview: Think Biblically

Podcast Interview: Think Biblically

Mary Jo was a guest on Sean McDowell and Scott Rae’s podcast Think Biblically to discuss her book Why I Still Believe. Here’s a preview of the transcript:

Episode Transcript

Sean McDowell: Welcome to the podcast, Think Biblically, Conversations on Faith and Culture. I’m your host, Sean McDowell, professor of apologetics at Talbot School of Theology, Biola University.

Scott Rae: I’m your cohost, Scott Rae, Dean of Faculty and professor of Christian ethics, also at Talbot School of Theology, Biola University.

Sean McDowell: Today we’re here with a guest that I have been looking forward to having on for a long time. Number one, she’s a personal friend. Number two is a graduate of our Biola MA in Apologetics program. Mary Jo Sharp has written a new book that’s just wonderful. I want to commend to all our listeners, it’s called Why I Still Believe. She is a full-time professor at Houston Baptist University, writes and speaks, and has just made a wonderful contribution in the world of apologetics and beyond. Mary Jo, thanks for joining us.

Mary Jo Sharp: Hey guys, it’s so good to be on today.

Sean McDowell: In this book really is an apologetics book, but in another sense it’s your story, it’s your journey and you do apologetics, but just in a narrative fashion, which I love. Maybe let’s just start by you sharing your journey to faith, kind of from atheism to becoming a Christian.

Mary Jo Sharp: Yeah. Well, part of my journey is that I didn’t grow up Christian and I think sometimes people have trouble with understanding that on the onset because they hear my name’s Mary Jo and that I have this Southern Baptist background. They think I was born and raised in the church in the South and that’s not the case. I actually grew up… I did not grow up in church and I grew up in a somewhat post-Christian culture in Portland, Oregon. In fact, I recently found an article about Oregon that said Oregon had one of the lowest participations in religion in the country back in even the ’50s.

Scott Rae: Wow, that far back, huh?

Mary Jo Sharp: Yeah, I was pretty shocked when I found that. For me, Christianity wasn’t part of the culture I grew up in. It wasn’t a huge part. It was what it was, was what I saw on TV in the movies. It’s pretty shallow. But what I did experience growing up in that area was the great beauty of the Pacific Northwest. I saw the beauty and power of the ocean. We also had a rich cultural environment in that my parents love to take me to the symphony and to opera and anything that… Plays, anything they could get their hands on that way. I saw the beauty of what humans could do through the arts. Then my dad was just a huge nature and science buff. He really exposed me to Carl Sagan and what people could do through the sciences.

I think over the years these areas profoundly impacted me. They made me have awe and wonder at the goodness, truth, and beauty I found in the universe, so much so that I think it made me more receptive to discovering what was behind all of it. Well in high school, I had a high school band teacher and for those of you who don’t know, I actually went and got a degree in music education and taught band for a while. I really respected this guy and he was a Christian who hadn’t shared his faith with anyone before and he was burdened for me. My senior year of high school, he gave me a Bible and he said, “When you go off to college, you’re going to have hard questions, I hope you’ll turn to this.”

I actually started reading that Bible, came around to, yeah, I came around to thinking, “There’s probably a God. I should investigate this because it seems to be answering what is the source of all that beauty I found.” In college I went to church for the first time on my own and after looking around a little bit, I found a church that gave a clear presentation of the good news of the savior for mankind. It really brought everything together for me. I trusted in Jesus for my salvation.

Scott Rae: Wow. That’s so… Let me get this straight. Your high school music teacher gave you a Bible in an effort to do something that the culture might define as proselytizing and would probably be fired for today. Is that right?

Mary Jo Sharp: Yeah. He actually, when he tells the story, he says he felt like he was going to get fired.

Scott Rae: Oh, is that right? Wow.

Mary Jo Sharp: Because I didn’t respond apparently real well, so he thought I was going to turn him in.

Scott Rae: He thought you were going to rat him out.

Mary Jo Sharp: Yeah.

Scott Rae: Mary Jo, before you came to faith, you were a self-described atheist. What were your impressions of Christians and Christianity before you came to faith?

Mary Jo Sharp: Yeah, my impressions of Christianity, as I mentioned earlier, I had a pretty shallow view because I didn’t know much about Christianity and my culture wasn’t culturally Christian. I sort of thought Christians were weird. They were the fringe of society. They weren’t normal people. normal people didn’t believe in God or didn’t have a need for that. But then there were these people that went to church, so they were sort of on the fringe of society. That was my view of Christians.

Now I wouldn’t have said it that way because I was taught if you don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say anything at all. I would never have said that to anybody. But that was, I didn’t know why they were Christians and then Christianity to me, I grew up in the 1980s and I saw the televangelists and some of the scandals that happened there. To me it looked like an institutional organization that just sort of asked for people’s money, but they weren’t to be trusted. I saw it as something that people kind of just did. They did it for whatever reason they needed that, but it wasn’t for the intelligent, compassionate human beings, but just for those people who needed something in their life that I didn’t need, and I’d probably would have seen it also as people who desired power and control. I would have that view of some of the pastors in Christianity.

Listen to the Podcast Interview and finish reading the transcript here

3 Reasons I Chose Christianity

3 Reasons I Chose Christianity

Recently Crosswalk gave me the opportunity to share a little of my story as Why I Still Believe released. Here’s a preview:

Present-day Western culture teaches that there is no need for God. Science has explained away all the aspects of life that we previously ascribed to deity. Therefore, it has become a somewhat popular opinion that God is unnecessary for our enlightened modern minds.

This was the mantra that played in the background of my mind when I struggled with the judgmentalism and hypocrisy I saw within the church.

Do I really believe in God? Am I confident God has been disproven by our current knowledge of the universe? Why would I subject myself to a community full of hypocrites when there’s no need to believe in God anymore?

Yet, when I considered stepping away from the church and from my faith to return to my former atheism, there were some things that stood in the way of leaving Christianity behind. Here a three reasons I could not walk away from belief in God: To read the rest head to crosswalk.com